Sunday, February 26, 2006 @ 5:17:00 pm
i feel like a fake.
having a facade over what i really am or feel.
where am 'I' ? i feel like a wandering soul left behind.
am i ever genuinely happy?
why is it whenever i am alone,
the hiden sadness, lonliness creeps up and builds up upon my face?
why is it i am so dependant on others?
i look independant, goal-driven, controlled.
yet, i'm not. i'm lost, lonely and empty.
where am i? where is the abundant love i gave and recieved.
everything i do seems fake.
the real happiness is out there.
somewhere.
all these a nonsense, gibberish.
words can never express my real feelings.