know what?
i've never felt so alone before.
every single time i sit in this little room,
i just feel that i'm left solo in the world.
its just.. tough.

this feeling has been around for at least a year.
whenever i'm surrounded by people, its not so bad.
but every single time, when there's no one about i jsut feel that im solo.
i'm not denying that i don't make an effort sometimes to even try to be best of friends.
but life isnt that way.
to me, three's a crowd.
i'm just the one left tagging behind.
as much as i try, its not the same.
its fake.
its hard putting down in words cause i dont want to reveal too much.
its going to affect me.
but who cares?
i dont know.

funny how one moment you're happy and the next, alone.
im so confused.
are things really what they are?
is my life the way its supposed to be,
the odd one?
lonesome. outcasted. oblivious.
i am always oblivious.
whats special? i dont know.

you and you.
i guess i'll never get that special bond between you two.
its not the same.
maybe i wont be missed.