hey all! just got back from church camp. lets see, i shall start from vjc farewell.

farewell was pretty fun despite the disgusting eating games. we had fun bonding and sabotaging people especially shannon and darren. lols (:

i went for corrinne may's concert on saturday! she is AMAZING! she had so much soul in her singing that you could cry! well.. i did actually. i can't wait for her new album to come out. her new songs are AWESOME! you can't help but tear at the song. i'm just waiting for the sing 'five loaves and two fishes' to come out. its a really great song. and i'be realised that corrinne may songs are not to a lover or a boyfriend but to God and Jesus. its so nice! rah rah rah! ALL THE WAY CORRINNE! oh and i took a picture with her and i got her autograph. ho ho (:

and now church camp. well.. i guess church camp was pretty okay i guess. i kinda expected more from it though. camp was fun but i didn't really find the answers that i was looking for. i don't even know what i'm looking for anymore. i guess i'm at the point of time where i'm questioning my own faith in God. to believe or not to believe.. i guess i do believe but there's just so many things that are distracting me from the path lying ahead of me. maybe it's because i've been going to church for the wrong reasons for a long long time that i've lost sight of where i'm actually heading to and now i find it difficult to get back to where i left. furthermore there's been too many tempatations that are prodding me that i feel too guilty to face God anymore.

i think i'm at the point where i'm having confusion in life. which path should i head to? who i am? what do people think of me? am i a fraud? i just have too many opinions of myself and i'm simply afraid of what people would think of me. sighhhhh.. why does life have to be so damn confusing?

problems aside and back to camp. camp was pretty good as i've already said. the rain was too much though. it rained for more than 24hours and we did not have a single hot shower! ( i'm so looking forward to a hot shower later! ) food was not a great as last year and we had to sleep in sleeping bags instead of beds. however the fellowship was excellent. that was one thing that i loved the most about this camp.

alvina, hanxiang, jason, brenda, sarah, phillip and chris i'm glad we were in the same group :D

well christmas is coming! hopefully i can finally find some answers soon. i think the only thing that is keeping be going is that it cost God so much just to save me and that i fear of going to hell. how nice.

xmas musical and christmas clothes shopping tomorrow
sec 4 xmas party tmr (:

SEE YOU :D