no time no time!
no time to read
no time to sleep
no time to rest
no time to study
no time for tv
no time for friends
no time to stop
no time to pause
no time no time AT ALL!

seriously. time is passing *snap* just like that. i'm amazed i found TIME to blog at all. so much to do but no time to finish at all..

weekend assignments
01 chinese compo
02 GP compre
03 study for physics lecture test
04 study for econs test

it may not sound alot but it IS a lot. it gets worst as somehow my brain cannot think at all! i couldnt think of what to write for either chinese compo or GP compre. example? in the 30mins given to write some of the chinese compo, i wrote 9 words. HAH! how rocks is that. moreover i'm actually starting to reconsider WTH i'm doing in vj. i'm actually feeling real stupid and dumb in class. and i'm such a slacker, sleeping in practically every lecture. how in the world do people actually cope with it? i'm getting so much lack of sleep thats why i actually sleep in lectures. i can barely study after training how the hell am i gonna pass. you might think i'm nuts about trying to pass every thing but somehow it means alot to me. somehow i just have to prove myself. why? i don't really know. its like why can't i just be some smart ass who don't really have to study much to know whats going on? or what can't i be a damn pro jumper? why can't i be this? why can't i be that?

so much for self love. its hard since there's so much more people around me, BETTER than me and i can't live up to that standard. seriously, what the hell am i doing. who the hell am i...

sometimes i just wish i am i really good writer or musicians. emotions are hard to express. they just bottle up inside me and never disappear. they'll all come out again every year.

where's the bbf you really need?
i wish life was simply "happily ever after"
life is so damn unfair..