RARH!
I seriously miss life when it was much easier.
Talking to oh tian hwee really made me wish life was simplier.

[SaD.Yesterday] ` On his face is a map of the world says:
IM SICK OF SCHOOL
[SaD.Yesterday] ` On his face is a map of the world says:
i wanna quit school
HWEE* tied together with a smile says:
hahaha
HWEE* tied together with a smile says:
who doesnt la
[SaD.Yesterday] ` On his face is a map of the world says:
and live in a caravan park, playing music and smoking weed
HWEE* tied together with a smile says:
OH MAN
HWEE* tied together with a smile says:
i wouldnt mind joining you
HWEE* tied together with a smile says:
just not the weed part
HWEE* tied together with a smile says:
haha
[SaD.Yesterday] ` On his face is a map of the world says:
HELL WHAT?!
[SaD.Yesterday] ` On his face is a map of the world says:
the weed is the best part
[SaD.Yesterday] ` On his face is a map of the world says:
perpetual high
HWEE* tied together with a smile says:
hahaha
HWEE* tied together with a smile says:
nahhhh
HWEE* tied together with a smile says:
i'll just chew straw
HWEE* tied together with a smile says:
and be ole yankee doodle
[SaD.Yesterday] ` On his face is a map of the world says:
>.>
[SaD.Yesterday] ` On his face is a map of the world says:
no country hillibillys

Haha! (: I really wouldn't mind. Why do we have to live such stereotypish lives?? sigh.
I want to travel round the world :D best job for that is being an air stewardess, but thats out of the questions. hurrr~

Seriously, I don't see a point in studying anymore. Actually, its more of , I'm really sick of studying, not knowing what I want and where the hell I want to go. Somehow, I'm feeling more and more demoralised studying. Everything I do makes me feel that I'm not good enough. Everyone around me is just so smart and just too good while I'm just, well, average. Gah.

God is somehow drifting further and further away from my life and I just don't know how to get back too him. It's just that I'm skeptical about a lot of things and I'm having a lot of doubts. Like how Hillsongs and Planetshakers concerts are practically rock concerts instead of a worship session and the issue about tongue speaking. Of course there are other things. It's just that I can't really figure them out yet. I still believe in God and Jesus. I just lost the close feeling and the passion for Christ. I'm feeling helpless now. I've stopped praying somehow. I don't even know what to say to Him anymore. I'm even afraid to go to Him cause of all the sins I've commited. Yes, He is an ever forgiving God but don't you ever have that feeling that God is too good for you and you're too unworthy to even talk to him? 2 years of doubts is alot. I need and want to get back to him. I guess I have a problem with commitment and communication. I think i have lots of problems. Or mabe, I'm just a really pessimistic person. Who knows? God knows.
I need help..