I feel like I'm in DEEP SHIT! GP prelims is in a few days and I'm failing. YES FAILING General Paper. Its like Bloody English! A language I speak 27/7 ever since I could talk and I'm failing that. Seriously, Thats F***ed up. Every time I see a failing grade for GP, it gets me more and more demoralised. I swear school is just making me feel so damn bad that I'm never ever going to suceed in life and that my future and whatever is to come is DOOMED. Its sickeningly demoralising. Somehow when I picked VJC as my first choice, I thought that being surrounded by awesomely smart people would help me get smarter. But NOOOOO I makes me feel like I'm the stupidest kid in town. Yes I have an ego problem. I need to be the best. At least somewhere there. When I'm not, I simply hate it. Get the feeling? Its like your gut just falls out and you just have this sinking feeling. But I don't want to show it so I just carry on putting that mask stating "I'm OK! :D" on for everyone to see till I'm out of sight.

I can't wait for the 'A' level's to be over. Its one of the worst periods in my entire life. I think I'm mood swinging or maybe the stress is getting to be. I pick neither. What stress? It sure ain't the stress of studying. More like the stress that I'm NOT studying and I'm doing so badly for everything.

Goodnight everyone. Sorry that you even have to read this ranter. Doubt anyone reads this thing anyway. That's fine. I can express myself more this way. That is if I can actually improve my vocabulary in the first place. HAH!